... Cause We Earned It.
There have many moons since the last time I wrote here. I have learned much about myself. I have been to the bottom and looked up. I have dealt with everything from love, loss, poverty, malnutrition, alienation and I'm sure there are others I may have moved on from. People have stood by me, people have turned their backs; I've stood my ground and turned my back. Sure a clever choice of words, but speaks true. I doubt anyone even reads this damn thing anymore, but I have spent many pensive nights thinking about how I think too much. I wonder about what my life could have been, or would have been. I think about what I did wrong, what I could have differently. And to be honest, the only thing I learned above all else, is that I am responsible for my own actions, even if it isn't my fault. If someone does a shitty job fixing my car, the outcome is based on my actions. If I bounce a check, it's up to me to deal with it. Complaining that they bug me for the payment only places the guilt off of me, yet it only digs the problem deeper.
There have many moons since the last time I wrote here. I have learned much about myself. I have been to the bottom and looked up. I have dealt with everything from love, loss, poverty, malnutrition, alienation and I'm sure there are others I may have moved on from. People have stood by me, people have turned their backs; I've stood my ground and turned my back. Sure a clever choice of words, but speaks true. I doubt anyone even reads this damn thing anymore, but I have spent many pensive nights thinking about how I think too much. I wonder about what my life could have been, or would have been. I think about what I did wrong, what I could have differently. And to be honest, the only thing I learned above all else, is that I am responsible for my own actions, even if it isn't my fault. If someone does a shitty job fixing my car, the outcome is based on my actions. If I bounce a check, it's up to me to deal with it. Complaining that they bug me for the payment only places the guilt off of me, yet it only digs the problem deeper.
Do I like where I am in my life right now? No. But do I have to complain about it all the time? Of course not. I have set myself a plan to attain the life that I want. Is it glitz, glamour or fame? Hardly. Sure it could happen, but sensibility is one of those virtues lost on young twenty something. The world is at your feet. You think everyone owes you something, because you have made it through the education process. The college of life has a very easy application and selection process, yet it's courses can kick your ass. Getting a bad grade doesn't even phase you anymore.
Enough ranting.
I hope by the next time I write in this I'll have some wonderful news that can help me turn around life. Things are looking up, but there is a long time before that happens. Who's in a rush?
"sometimes to do the things you love you leave the ones you love behind " - hit the lights
Current Music - story of the year
"sometimes to do the things you love you leave the ones you love behind " - hit the lights
Current Music - story of the year
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