I've taken some time away from the blog in order both to focus on my script and to soul search my way to an idea for the future. Have I learned much? Not really. I did put together a script that has garnered favorable acclaim from my very small circle of friends. Id it going to be the next Sundance award winning film? Probably not, but dammit completing the script was my own Everest. Maybe it can materialize one day, but for down I'll set it off to sail in the sky. One day, I'll find the strength to chase it down. It the endless nights I've had in the last few weeks, I've had my ups and downs. But now, I've put my foot down and taking control of my mind. I've spent many nights wallowing in self pity and borderline depression, but it's a demon I've created that I can easily tame. With time I'll control my thoughts better, but I'm happy to be writing again.
If anyone is reading this and is having issues with cynicism and/or self loathing, consider yourself lucky that you can see something like that in yourself. Sometimes people will go their entire lives without looking into themselves, often after it's too late and there's nothing to do about it. It's getting easier to smile.
"It's only after you've lost everything, that you have everything to gain" - a quote from yours truly.
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