I don't know what it is about this town. I never thought that being an outsider would feel this alienating. I'm sure it's only a matter of time before this place becomes to feel more like home. When I'm at work, I have control. I know what I'm doing. Everything else, I'm having a hard time with.
I've always told myself that if I follow my heart then I will never be disappointed. And that when anything happens, I can only move forward. In all this rhetoric regarding moving on and facing the truth, I would only hope that my professional life and my personal life would compliment each other. As a sales rep in the cycling industry, I know what I am doing. In my personal life, I have no idea what I'm doing. Part of me wants to run back to my old life, but I have to stick it out. At night when I sit alone in my room, I look out the window. I see the moon. I know that the moon will never leave. Even when the moon may not be there for a couple nights, I know that it's coming back. It helps.
And if I fail, well then I fail but at least I gave you something.
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