For Those that May....

As many of you may read, my life has not been the smoothest by any means. Today was the day that I took the power back. I had to take a hand, grab a rope, call for help; whatever you call it, I couldn't do it on my own. But, my streak of bad wasn't over there. Oh no. I don't think fate would have allowed to get away that easy. The other night I was listening to Mitch Hedburg. One of his jokes were that if he had the choice he wouldn't have four easy payments of 19.95. He'd want to have three easy payments and one complicated payment. If anyone could have a complicated payment, it was me. I purposely got to the auto shop right when they opened at eight am. I learned that their credit card machine did not work. I went to the ATM, and I only had a $400 dollar limit. I ended up having to write my roommate a $1500 check to cash in his name so I could get the cash. We went to two banks, one being his own, and they wouldn't accept an out of state check without a week hold. I couldn't wait that long. We finally got to the Ace Cash Express place to cash the check. And they charged me seven cents on the dollar to cash it. What else could I do at this point. After all this I finally got my car back. After three weeks of headache, wonder and self revelation, I am wiser and better for it. The root of my problems and stress all stemmed from not having a car. I am happy to be able to come home to Florida this weekend for a wedding, recharge my batteries, and return to South Carolina with a fresh mind, fresh heart and above all, a fresh car. Look out Florida, the Gabe you knew is gone.
I am the life ridden self evolved. My hero's trial is over. My patience has overcome the adversity set before me. I am very happy to see my friend get married. He is making the commitment I hope to make one day. I wrote in an earlier entry that I couldn't see anyone loving my above anything else in the enitre world. I have reflected in leu of the exchange of nuptuals, that time is only thing between myself and eternal bliss. I do believe that there is someone out there for everyone. Have I already found it and let it go? Maybe. But they also say there is plenty of fish in the sea. It is only a matter of time before someone enters, or reenters, my life and takes it by storm. The most exciting part of whole process is that I am in a place of my life right know that I can truly, 100%, put everything I have into making a relationship work. I am sad to think that I was close to where I am know to have lost so much invested time, but it is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.
Oh how the plot thickens.
Current Music - Silence, but the new underoath is great.